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m'aimer pour qui je suis...

2011-12-31T00:32:00.000-08:00

Love me for who I am…
Love me for who I was…
Please don’t come to condemn
For what I did for a cause
I tried to untie the string
Too immature to be wise
Not aware of the sting
The best I could revise
Foolishly I will walk
keep on stumbling my path
I beg that you wouldn’t mock
And wouldn’t build any wrath
Please don’t condemn
Love me for who I was
Please don’t hate who I am
and understand my many flaws.

This is a poem I wrote years ago, and it shares the title with my blog.
I hope not to write such poems as this one in the future. I only wish for happy thoughts in 2012.

Closure

2011-12-06T09:54:00.000-08:00

Closure,
Everyone needs
Composure
is what it heeds
One needs the nerve
for him to put a stop
In order to deserve
To have a fresh new start
Closure is when
a surgeon seals the wound
then anyone can begin
walk around, rebound
Closure is what
everyone needs
It is a cut
sewed up and shut.

A Canary in Yellow

2010-05-21T09:06:00.000-07:00

My poem from five years ago...
September 2, 2005

This is a poem about myself.
Thanks for reading.

-A Canary in Yellow-

A caged bird,
wants to heard
a Canary in yellow
says a morning hello.
a whisper, it sounds
Its voice soon mounds
freedom, it speaks
care it seeks
in loneliness it shakes
fear it takes
love it hopes
in loneliness it mopes
the lonesome bird
Are you being heard?

no title

2010-05-21T08:53:00.000-07:00

I guess
time goes
life's a mess
but it flows
like a river
it just goes.

direction
towards perfection
analyze
and I realize
stress
causes more mess.

SO,
I guess time goes.

This Judgmental World

2010-04-19T21:37:00.001-07:00

I don’t blame anyone for my imperfection
But it upsets me I’m treated like an infection
judgments upon me, without knowing me
To their standards, I’m not good enough
They’re throwing rocks, until I hit rock bottom
I should just hide, maybe like a phantom

Stop judging me as if I'm a disgusting insect
for you're not as clean as you imagine yourself to be.

God Only Knows

2010-03-29T23:17:00.000-07:00

God only knows
what road I'll take
God only knows
what I'll partake
too many fears
He knows me in tears
but by my side
Never I slide.

God only knows
what, why, how
So I suppose
I ought to bow now.

Haven't Hit It Yet

2009-08-02T01:34:00.000-07:00

cannot be let down
no time to frown
when i have not yet
have all my goals met
my boat, Titanic
I was in panic
but at least i could
swim and be good
be optimistic
yet be realistic
haven't hit rock bottom
at least not yet

no title

2009-06-11T10:29:00.000-07:00

Tangled and tangled
feeling like being mangled
Reopening my cut
and again I'm taught
Don't be so trusting
To Reality I'm adjusting
But in circles I run
and nothing I have done
and won.

Incomprehensible World

2008-08-24T00:38:00.000-07:00

Incomprehensible world
there’s no way out
My life’s been curled
I only pout
Why this path
arrival delayed
only building wrath
my hopes, decayed
a ripped treasure map
feelings only tangle
broken wings flap
Hopes only dangle.
Incomprehensible.

I No Longer Wait

2008-06-26T01:32:00.000-07:00

-I No Longer Wait-

I no longer wait
for a prince to come
I no longer hate
for I feel numb
I no longer smile
to go an extra mile
I no longer hope
or mope.
I redefine
my life,
my strife
Re-envisioning,
making better decisions.

Place Your Hope

2008-06-26T01:05:00.000-07:00

inspired by Albert Einstein's quote, “If you want to live a happy life, tie it to a goal, not to people or things.”

Place your hope
anywhere, but in persons
people only mope
their hope only worsens
I've come this far
with a smile on my lips
life's been a bizarre
a smile now on my hips
walking towards the unknown
attempts to be prudent
my desire to hone
my life, I was hidden
I wept in despair
for hopes were in people
Life seemed unfair
I felt like a cripple
place your heart
in a desire or goal
Do stay apart
from who stains your soul.

I Am Me

2008-06-17T23:45:00.000-07:00

I am me.
I haven't changed,
I am the same.
the same smile
the same love
the same embracing heart
perhaps matured more,
but I am the same
I am me.
I cry more easily
when I watch movies
I might have seen more sad events,
but I am me, the same person
you knew yesterday.
I give you the same smile
I see you with the same eyes
no distortion, no hatred
I only see you with love.
I am the same,
I haven't changed
I am me
I am me.

My Last Letter to You

2007-07-04T12:02:00.000-07:00

oh, listen to me,
please listen to me
where were you when
when I needed you then
you weren't in my sight
so my mind had to fight
I was dying and drowning
and you were only frowning
and all those years
I was nothing but tears
I repeatedly sought
for love that wasn't brought.
oh, listen to me,
listen to me
where were you when
when I needed you then
sadly I speak and
in the end
oh my mind died again
oh my mind died again

Memory

2007-04-27T03:25:00.000-07:00

Try to recollect
only the best things
Only select
what good memory brings.
Silly mistakes
That tickle your nose
Ache's what it takes
for a person to grow.
Immature thinking
Erase it forever
Or he'll only sink
and never be clever.
Remember only when
You smelled sweet scent
On your face again
A smile will be sent.

2004-08-30T03:35:00.000-07:00

-Wounded (Unfinished)-
Too many scars on my arms
Slowly erasing all my charms,
Bruises on my legs,
For mercy my soul begs.

-Apologetic Prayers-

Records in my history
Solving an endless mystery
Growing anger in my heart
Where do I really start?

Apologies are too many
Excuses are plenty
Perfection, I’ve failed
Happiness is heavily veiled

What I strive to be
For mercy I begin to plea
Is God listening to them?
He only seems to condemn.